This is just a space where I will write about the more personal things that I think about or am feeling. Unlike my other blog, Jazzy's Notebook, this isn't something I want to share with the whole world. So why blog about it right? Well, for my entire life I always kept journals. Wrote about my feeling and thoughts and experiences. Then, 2 of the closest people to me, read them, at different points in my life. I do not regret them reading it now. At the time I was so mad I threw all of my journals away. Years of writing gone. So, I turned to blogging. Here it is forever and I can share it or keep it private. Yes, I have random thoughts. I write about books, movies, gardening or whatever else comes to mind on my other blog. If you want light-hearted and easy going, check that one out. Here, I will share my deeper thoughts that are not all pink and easy. I usually keep the deep thoughts inside. I'd like to let them out. So here goes.

Saturday, August 31, 2013

What I Learned Today

What I learned today.
Is that a question or a statement?
You want to know what I learned?
I learned that we are all the same.
I learned that no matter the package, clothes, role of family, age, gender-we are all the same.
We all make the same mistakes.
We all feel lonely.
We all keep secrets.
We all like to think we are better than the next person.
We want to think we will be better tomorrow than what we are now.
No one is exempt from this truth.
Maybe that is the only truth.

What I learned today.
I learned today that female is mother, sister, aunt, cousin, friend or foe.
Male is too.
Our roles in our life do not exempt us.
Nor do they define us.
Or who we are.
Or the choices we make.
The roles we play do not make us.
The roles change as we change.
As the people around us change.
As our expectations change.
As our happiness changes.
As our disappointments change.

What I learned today.
I have learned time and time again.
What I learned today.
I learned yesterday.
I will learn tomorrow.
I will continue to learn.

Until.

I can stop expecting.
Expecting for a certain behavior.
Expecting for a certain reaction.
Expecting for a certain acknowledgement.
Expecting for another outcome.
Expecting for someone to be greater than they are.
Expecting for something to be better than I thought.
Expecting better for myself.
Expecting the worst.
Expecting the best.

And start accepting.
Accepting the things I cannot change.
Accepting things for what they are.
Accepting you for who you are.
Accepting myself.

That is what I learned today.