This is just a space where I will write about the more personal things that I think about or am feeling. Unlike my other blog, Jazzy's Notebook, this isn't something I want to share with the whole world. So why blog about it right? Well, for my entire life I always kept journals. Wrote about my feeling and thoughts and experiences. Then, 2 of the closest people to me, read them, at different points in my life. I do not regret them reading it now. At the time I was so mad I threw all of my journals away. Years of writing gone. So, I turned to blogging. Here it is forever and I can share it or keep it private. Yes, I have random thoughts. I write about books, movies, gardening or whatever else comes to mind on my other blog. If you want light-hearted and easy going, check that one out. Here, I will share my deeper thoughts that are not all pink and easy. I usually keep the deep thoughts inside. I'd like to let them out. So here goes.

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Taps the mic...is anyone out there?

Well, this is a new record. About 9 months of silence. 9 months of struggles, stress, pain, happiness, vacations, marriage, honeymoon. Goals met, goals failed. Falling down and picking myself back up. Depression and sadness. So much has gone on in these months. I'll just share the quick and dirty synopsis. I was doing great until December 2014. Pretty much until I bought my wedding dress.  Due to a situation with my mother I really did all wedding things on my own without her. I'm so thankful and grateful for such wonderful friends and sister who really have been here for me. After buying the dress I became pretty depressed and began eating my emotions. Cupcake after cupcake. I still worked out, just not consistently. I was so mentally drained that it was pretty hard for me to focus on taking care of myself. Anywhoodles, I got married in July, had a great time, went on a honeymoon and now I'm back to work. Just because the wedding is over doesn't mean my goals are expired. There is no expiration on your dreams.  



Today's workout: tabatta (20 seconds on, 10 seconds rest, 8 rounds) plank, situps, ground to overhead, leg lifts, lunges, squats.  2 mile run on my lunch break in 90 degree weather. Hot as heck! Saw this truck while running, how fitting!